It seems such a long time ago that I began this journey. It has taken me 6 years and 10 months in total. I remember after finishing my masters I felt that I had accomplished something, and that I had an experience that, whilst difficult and stressful, had been very rewarding. Finishing my Stage 2 did not feel like that, at least not at first. I had a sense of relief that the work was finally over: no more practice diaries, no more placements, no more submission or re-submissions. I just felt plain relieved. Even when I received my BPS certificate and my HCPC certificate, I felt little joy or elation at my achievement.
Fast forward 6 months and I agree to attend the DFP Conference to accept my certificate in a more formal setting. My partner and I decided to treat it as a small family holiday with our 6 month old and we drove to the conference. My supervisor was there to greet me with hugs and congratulations and her old supervisor was also there and did the same. I lined up with my peers who had also qualified and we sat in the front row of the conference hall waiting to be called on stage to collect our certificates.
As we waited, we whispered to one another our relief and confessed the length of time it had taken to complete, 6 years 10 months for me, some others shorter and some others longer but all of us united in the sense of gladness that it was finally over. We collected our certificates and smiled for the obligatory group photo and then we all dispersed, back into the crowd and off back to our roles wherever we are, no one so much as looking over their shoulders. But when I do look back at the event, I remember one thing very clearly. My little boy was the centre of attention and one lady, a senior psychologist, commented that despite the chartership, children are the greatest achievement. And this really did place everything in perspective.
Before this, all I saw were the times of failure and the re-submissions. I had still held on to the feeling of being under constant stress and strain trying to complete the work and felt resentful of that. I have since been able to let go of that burden, and that alone is an achievement. To hear my peers express similar experiences and relief helped me recognise the enormity of the task we set ourselves and we came through it, slowly but surely. More a case of the tortoise and hare than any prodigal speed to win a race but complete the race we did. And also, if that lady was right and my little boy is my greatest achievement, then completing that chartership was an achievement along the way and I should acknowledge it as such.
I think what I am reflecting on now is that this was one of the toughest journeys I embarked upon and I know that peers on the BPS route and the doctorate are experiencing the same stresses and strains. It is natural to feel relieved and want to push away all thought of the emotional challenges and feel bitter, but actually getting through is an achievement and each one of us should feel proud (although you won't see me applying to do any further studying for a while now, if ever!).
So to all of you still training, stick with it, you will get there, be brave and work through the failures - we all have had them.
To those of you starting out, don't just think about finishing fast. Think about the training route that will help you qualify, that is cost effective and that fits with the life that you want to live outside of your career. If that means choosing a slower route so that you can afford holidays and to travel and have children, then do just that; the training routes aren't going to disappear if you don't get it finished straight away, and neither is the profession.
And from me, this is my last post here as I move on to the next stage of my life. Thank you to all those who have read, glanced over or accidentally clicked on the blog. You have been a source of catharsis for me over these years.
Farewell.
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